Part 2

As we moved from last weekend into this last week I got to work
with a wonderful woman named Deb. Over the week she took me under her wings and
taught me how to deal with some issues that I have been entrapped by for a long
time! Praise God that I was open and vulnerable enough to open up to her. Some
of the things that surfaced were deep seeded anger, and a spirit of pride and
entitlement, as well as a lack of respect for those in authority positions, and
a lack of trust in God. Wooooosh, let me tell you that was an intense 3 days.
Praise God, that it only came up one issue at a time. First, God reveled to me
that I have an anger issue. Then,  when I couldn't figure out why, when I
felt out of control, I would still lose my cool and burst out with mean words,
He gently reminded me of how I was raised. Could it be my fits of anger were
because that's how I was raised, and that's what was modeled to me through the
majority of the people around me while I was growing up?  Also, why were
talking about how you were raised could it possibly that the reason you don't
submit to authority is because that is how you were taught to handle authority
from guys and leadership. I am about to change your life forever, cause your
never gonna be the same again.

    "I am the true vine, and my
Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit,
while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more
fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.
Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it
must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me."
John 15

So, now today is May 8th and I would think that with that said I
would be free from it, and not have to deal with it anymore. Ha Ha, yeah right! "Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls
around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing
firm in the faith." I am an
even bigger threat to him now that all the roots have been pulled up! He is
like, "yeah right you can't change, thats who you are. Let's see how you
handle yourself when I throw depression on you and make you feel that your not
good enough and that your not important, and that no really likes you anyway,
they just deal with you." All I got to say about all that pile of
poop...is  "Get behind me,Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do
not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men."